I have a prescription for antibiotics, which I will get after I finish writing this...and one for painkillers, which I will get but not use. Although Eric and Joni think I should have them "just in case" other than the csection I had, I've never needed painkillers for anything but a migraine...and I hate taking drugs anyway. I have no intentions whatsoever of taking them. My pain tolerance is high, and while the cramps were/are uncomfortable...I can deal with them. That's why I've been up since 4am.
I'm getting a cheap camera to use to take pictures...and I'm going to write a ritual of goodbye, and then freeze the bits until I can plant them with a tree. I'll do the ritual tonight, which means writing it after I get back with the abx and the camera.
As long as I don't think about it, I'm generally ok...and I've had so much practice "putting it away" in regards to things I don't want to think/feel, its almost second nature.
I'll pick out a name, too, for the burial.